I didn't even get to take a picture of it. I didn't even have it for a week. I'm so devastaed right now :( I really really miss touching it already. AUghgthhhasldjf;lasdf.
Tuesday started out alright, even though the clouds were hanging a little lower than expected. We went to eat at Bing Xing dim sum (and then went to get some last minute stuff... we're not a really prepared bunch of people) and then heading out to Harrison.
We got there and went to the beach part just to look around ... it's a "big" place. It looks some what like Trout Lake... but the greens are replaced by sand. Then we went to the hot springs. Honestly when I heard about Harrison Hot Springs... I thought it was like outside hot springs! But that's not true--well not for where WE went anyways. It was just a nice swimming pool with hot spring waters. I don't know who I heard it from but I've come to the conclusion that I get sea sick when I swim. It's because I haven't gone swimming in a long time.. and every time I'm in the water above my chest, I can't breath properly...whereas before, I would be fine. It was a nice place--small and cosy. Haha and no youngings. Just us girls. And a few random people. It was mostly seniors. Anyways, we got out and headed back to our cars to decide what to eat. It was THEN that I lost my ring. I was sitting in the car facing outwards and putting cream on. Me wanting to protect my ring from being all creamed up, I took it off and probably put it on my lap. I sat there and listened as the others decided where to go. They thought that it was a better idea to just eat in the area.. so I got up and got my stuff, and left. We had lunch at this cafe place... it was alright. Nothing spectacular. We got in and started heading to Paddy's cabin. An hour or so into the drive I was feeling my ring finger... and realized that I did not have my ring on me! I started freaking out and looking for it. I could not find it. There was a big part of me that wished I had checked my ring more often. There was a big part of me that wish that I helped Ellen get her tumbler so I could've probably seen my ring. There was a big part of me that wish that I hadn't even taken it off. :(
We arrived at the cabin after a lonnnnnnggg drive. It was so small, but super cute! If you've been in my kitchen.. it's like 2/3 of the room with the other 1/3 as the upstairs. Yea, it was tiny. We unloaded and made dinner. We had lasaugna for dinner! Pretty good if you asked me :) Too bad we had so much of it.. that we STILL have leftovers. Too bad the guys didn't join us. After dinner we all just kind of... died. We decided to watch a movie. It was a korean movie ... kind of like love actually. Ugh... this is why I don't watch Korean stuff as often now. I knew it was cheesy back then...but now, it's even more cheesy! I mean there are sad parts... but the cheese is just too much. Blah. After that, two of the girls decided to go sleep...while the rest of us played Uno. I swear they were all picking on me by the end of the night. They were always targeting me to pick up...and ended up picking up 16 cards. At least I got to put a lot of it down... haha unlike other people who got to put one down before the game ended. Anyways, the game ends, and we all go to sleep.
I woke up on Wednesday pretty early... 9ish? I was so sore all over. Maybe it's because of my posture... or maybe it's because of the bedding.. but I just couldn't sleep anymore. I felt so uncomfortable. I got up and decided to go out to spend some time alone. I went out to the dock and it was so nice out! Okay it wasn't really. It was actually quite cold too. But there was like fog/mist floating over the water (which I like to believe it was clouds :b since we drove into one on our way here) and it was really really silent... except some random people talking in the background and some ducks quacking. I got to do some devotions. It's interesting how I felt like God has been telling me to be more like Jesus the past few weeks, and here I read about it again! Clearly signs that I should be acting more like Jesus and less like what I am. It's harder than you think... or well for me anyways. I'm not going to lie. Even though I'm surrounded by Christians sometimes... I don't feel they're like Jesus all the time. Those people are hard to find these days!
I went back inside and we started making breakfast at 10 am. Haha it was too early for some people (considering they wake up at 2pm usually). We ate .... and then prepared lunch... and then ate. Haha it was literally make food, eat, make food, eat. And then we actually took a break. Fiona went tanning and Vicky went for a nap. Haha funny how it's always those two that goes off and does their own thing.. kind of. The rest of us decided to walk around.
Our nature walk turned into some kind of insect/reptile (is that what toads are? HAHA I seriously don't know) hunt. We found Charlie first (the toad) and then like 2 grasshoppers and 2 "clappers" (we actually didn't know the name for them... but Ellie kept calling it that, so it just kind of stuck) and finally we found Billy. They were like our pets for the day! Fiona and Vicky did not approve of our findings... they were in fact, quite disgusted. Haha. Oh well. Charlie was so fun!! He kept climbing and jumping from one my hands to the other. Haha at one point, I started singing spider toad (Simpsons version of spider pig). Finally, our plan of going to town commenced at about 3pm.
Fiona point out something that was so true... many of the stores were called "Princeton ________". Not very creative with their names... or they are just proud to live in Princeton. There wasn't really anything to see... just walked around. We went to DQ (yea, they had a DQ AND booster juice!!) and then headed back home.
Wendy and I started making the dough for the pizza, while the rest just laid around. We finished and decided to take a short nap and woke up to some good smelling cookies. Even though they smelled good, they tasted like cake...ahha not that it's a bad thing... I'm just saying. Good job Fee :) We punched out the dough and started our pizza making. This time.. it ACTUALLY worked. Not like our Galiano fail burnt pizzas. Anddd they were very tasty :) Not to mention... fattening. Oh gosh. We had so much cheese during this trip.. we had cheese EVERY meal. I'm not even exaggerating. Okay maybe for the first breakfast day... but every other meal, we used cheese. We baked our pizza and ate them along side our lasuagna left overs.
After dinner, we started watching this movie called Push. It's about naturally born powers ...kinda like heroes if you asked me. It was actually really good! There were a lot of questions about their powers and whatnot--lots of flaws in the movie. But it was good overall. This was a movie that you'd have to watch twice to actually understand some parts. After the movie, two of the girls went to sleep. Cept one of them was different this time. The four of us girls decided to play Blitz. Haha see fee, you couldn't kick my ass even if you tried :b Just kidding! It was very intense... and got a lot of arm exercise. It was probably the most exercise we did during the camp. After Blitz, we played some Uno and then headed to sleep.
I woke up today to something I haven't heard in a long time--well morning wise anyways. The rain was so loud and the skies were thundering. I thought we were somewhere else for a while. I got up a little later today...around 10:30am. Again it was due to the soreness. I think I should go see a chiropracter. I need some back fixing. Oh wait, actually I think I got up cause I started thinking about ... someone and wanted to go journal. Initially, I wanted to go out and just sit and enjoy the rain but, there was no where for me to sit since it was all wet! So I decided to journal inside. A while later, everyone started to get up, and we made breakfast. We had to finish off most of our food.. so I ended up eating a 3 eggs omlette -.-" With ham AND cheese (see, I told you!) After breakfast, we all kind of lounged for a bit before we started packing up and cleaning everything. I don't know how long we took, but according to Ellie, we cleaned up pretty quickly. We ended the trip by some last rounds of Uno...with EVERYONE. Not as epic as I thought it'd be, but it was still fun!
After Uno, we dumped the garbage and started heading to Harrison...to check for my ring. Obviously it wasn't there and it made me even more emo.
I know this wasn't exactly how our trip was planned in the very beginning ... a lot of stuff had been cut out. But it was still fun nonetheless! I enjoyed everyone's company and got some alone time too. The trip was ... short, sweet, and simple.
I'm going to miss:
-waking up and having our American style breakfast
-cooking and having someone else clean up after me
-our pets
-going to hunt for our pets
-snuggling with Ellie
-doing things together
-making food together
-camwhoring together with our t-rex poses
-watching movies together
-playing games together--especially taboo and using Fiona as all our examples when explaining.
Frankly, I'm going to really miss being in the presence of you guys... (we need a name!)
I'm not going to miss:
-peeing in a hole
-peeing in a hole at night (I think about pretty absurd things)
-sleeping on the mats
-eating a lot
-living on cold water
Frankly, there's not much I don't miss. Hurrah for phone service... while the others suffered in want (ie. feefee).
And now, back to reality.
On the ride back, the Paddy and Ellie had some interesting things to say. After they started going on about how I should get his attention and give him "chances" to talk to me, I told them I don't WANT to like him though. They made me think about why I didn't want to like him when I don't even know him. Honestly, I wonder if I ever knew him. The past felt so much like a dream--just faint memories in the back of my mind, some random scraps of paper, and here on my blog. Who we are now, and the relationship we have now cannot have developed out of the past can it? I've been told to make more of an effort but there are so many excuses. I've said that I already have--as futile as they may have been. I've said that I shouldn't have to make the effort this time around. I've said that I shouldn't because this isn't something I want.
Then again, what DO I want? If it's not what I want, why can't I let go? Is it closure that I need or is it my feelings that I need to straighten out? I thought about telling you why I liked you back then because I realized I never did. But what's the point? I don't see a point. It doesn't explain why I still think about you now. It doesn't explain why I've never really been able to let you go.
I don't know.
